Imagine you are out for a drive. You are motoring along. Occasionally you stop to get a bite to eat or to enjoy some of the sites. But mostly you are cruising and taking in the ride.
Suddenly you realize your vehicle is going on it's own. Not too fast, not too slow, but ever moving whether you want it to or not. You realize you are not really even steering the car or choosing the exact direction you are travelling any longer. You run red lights and stop signs. You pass in no passing zones and are passed in others. But, you continue relentlessly forward. There is no reverse.
You would love to just STOP, to pull in somewhere and sit and take in the local flavor. You know, however, the only stopping you will be doing is by crashing or just running out of gas somewhere you don't want to be.
But, maybe moving towards SOMETHING is better than stopping at NOTHING.
Welcome to our life.
You may get this more if you read (or re-read) these older posts: "A Serious One" from 4/6/08 "Alphabet diseases" from 11/13/07 and "Questions" from 1/20/08 I am still trying to get answers to the Questions asked in the post above. I have not found any that are worthy of printing. I have come up with more questions: How does one handle seeing the continual decline of their spouse and not being able to do a thing about it? How do you take the inability of your 53 year old wife to get out of bed, or in and out of the shower unaided? How do you answer questions that beg not to be asked, like: will I see Bailey (our daughter, a rising senior)graduate; will Hannah (our granddaughter - almost 3) remember me; or will I see Landon (or grandson - 6 months) walk? How do you comfort your bride of 35+ years when she looks at you with tears streaming down her face? Most of all, how do you offer support and help when you are so damn mad at the world and the situa...
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